I always felt that our (our daw o! Gibbs, McVie etc) downfall is over analyzing everything. We eventually justify that things are as they should be.

In my opinion, be more like CC! Yes, you may stumble and fall and make a lot of mistakes…but at least its a hell lot more fun. lolz.

May chance pa naman….I say take the dive. Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

Sigh*

Feel ko pa rin ang loneliness kahit may spice na ng onti lately..

Just go along muna with the flow, malay mo, your love is just around the riverbend.. anu daw yun? hehehe very marikina pa nga ang comment ko AT VERY POCAHONTAS!

*run to you moments naman pala itu!

i always feel lonely during the holidays also… i’m just thankful that i have work and school to attend to to keep myself busy… and my friends are always there to keep me company. i even have a girl friend who dates me around, just so i have someone by my side. i wish i could find that special someone, not because its christmas, but because i want to partake myself to someone. =P

strangely enough, i get you.
i love this friend whom you know as boy chinito. he means the world to me. i first realizd how much he meant to me after i realized how scared i was of the prospect of losing him—of us drifting apart. you see in lfe we make friends, we meet people—but every once in a while we meet keepers—people we want to keep around us FOREVER.
im not really so physicallt attracted to boy chinito. he’s not ugly—in fact he fits the mold of my type—but more than his physcal attributes, its the person inside who is so addictive and charming and lovable. he doesnt know it but i think of him as my chinese teddy bear—this teddy bear my mom gave me as a kid which was made in chine which i grew up always hugging and sleeping with—something that brought me to secure, safe and happy and peaceful place.
i lost that teddy bear when we renovated the house and i sometimes miss that teddy bear. i miss how it made me feel….which is how boy chinito makes me feel. i dont want to lose him.
boy chinito may never love me the way i love him—but i take happiness in the fact that while we may never be a couple—i know he loves me—at least enough to always see to it that i am the best person i can be—and to promise me whatever happens (this after weve been fighting and fighting over how we are as friends)—he’ll never leave me.

i think it’s a mistake that you assume that just because you already said it, then you can’t take it back anymore. he made a real effort to go see you and tell you how he felt. i suggest you go through a similar production number to tell him how you felt.

posting this on your blog–and hoping, perhaps, that he’ll read it?–is a cop-out. tell him how you feel about him, and see where it leads you.

you don’t mention how he reacted. i think that’s just as important as how you felt. and we, your readers, deserve to know every detail of the telenovela that your life has become =)

thats whats been lurking in my mind the past several years din…do we need to suppress whatever we feel towards a person if we wanted a good relationship to last?…yun bang maging magkaibigan na lang maski mahal ang isa’isa? my ex broke-up w/ me saying, “i have become so close w/ his family that if ever, they get to discover that he and i have this romantic affair, bka paghiwalayan din daw kami at baka d na rin kmi magkita?”

ANO BA YUN?? MAY LOVE TRIANGLE BA DITO; RAYMOND, MIGS AND CHINITO…

An liit naman ng mundo. Sa circle na ginagalawan ko, ganun din. I fell for someone, who fell for another one, who fell for me…nyehe!( Kamot ulo mode.):-/

ako, i am just enjoying my freedom…freedom from a troubled past…i take life by the day hoping that along its course, i’ll meet the one who’d be by my side for the rest of my life…

pero for whatever it is, i am wishing mama migs a happy and warm future in the arms of his one true love…cuddling for the rest of their lives…

merry christmas!

i think what you did was right.

you wont know until you try diba.. hahaha..

Gaga ka talaga…wala kang dapat ikalungkot ngayong kapaskuhan…ang dami mong tagasubaybay na nagmamahal sayo…di pa ba sapat yun? Hhmmp…Merry Christmas na nga lang sayo bago kita lusubin dyan at pagkukurutin!

For some reason, I think you two will end up in bed together. I am not saying that this may lead to a solid and lasting relationship (that’s another matter), but since there’s obviously a mutual sexual attraction between the two of you (I think your friend has an idea that you like him even if you told him pointblank that you would rather want him as a friend), it will only be a matter of time until you take the plunge and “do it” with him. I can see the signs, and it’s going in that direction.

yoko muna ng drama. mahalin ang sarili.

i read your piece again. and this i type a more organized response. you guys actually like each other. and me thinks that since youre the one whos obviously scared to lose him—you have more substantial feelings for him. you did sound a bit exasperated responding ” bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi” when you did—as if reprimanding him for something he should have done a long time ago. you send very mixed and confusing signals. i think you and chinoy deserve to have one more conversation about this to clear the air. make a clean breast of your feelings. tell him you like him. because its what you feel. then tell him youre scared what these feelings could mean. if he’s the great guy you think he is—the guy youive painted him to be, not oly would he understand—he’d also help you figure out a way to make it work—whatever “it” maybe—whether its as friends or lovers.
if boy chinito were to tell me now that he loves me and wants to be with me–i’d tell him im scared to lose him because i love him—and im scared because crossing the line of friendship may make us more prone to losing each other.
boy chinito and i have been fighting a lot as friends lately. arguing. debating. harsh words. through it all—weve managed to somehow patch things up. its like kids—they can fight then make up just like that.–boy chinito says its because in the end–friends always look at the bottomline—whatever makes them happy–doesnt matter who’s right.
i think you guys really just have toalk some mre and figute it out. i think you need to actually sort your feelings first.

hay mga drama sa buhay! makapagrosaryo nga!

grabe!migs thats my favorite sa RUN TO YOU…kakaiyak kapag lonely ka..hehehehehe…

I used to have the same predicament. I fell for a straight guy. We talked about our dreams and aspirations in life and then he started to build his dreams around me. I got scared. I love this guy although he never said a word about his feelings for me instead he just show it. The OC in me wanted to have a closure of sort. I want to hear it straight from him. So I wrote this rather vague letter on the brink of a new year:

“Dear XXXXXX,

It’s a new year. A time to cherish the memories of the past and a time to look forward what lies ahead. I want to start my year right and I want to start it by doing the right things. I suppose that one will not live life to the fullest if one lives in sheer pretension, for lying to oneself is the pretense of it all. I never want to be in bondage of what I feel. I always hold true to myself but not this time.

It’s never wrong to look at life through rose-colored glasses. It’s been a while since I gave myself a chance to be happy. What kept me from doing so is the fear to let the other person down. I never wanted him to feel I took advantage of the friendship and look beyond the meaning of the words that were never in between. I never wanted him to feel betrayed. I forced myself to oblivion, believing that what I felt never existed. It’s like a gnawing feeling of swimming in the vast sea, every kick seems to be a futile effort to move against the current.

Never in my life I felt so sure of myself. Never did I meet someone who sees life exactly the way I do. I was in grand illusion of a Utopia I created for myself not even knowing if the other could simply exist in the world I created. I always like his drive, his passion for life, his ambitions that fit exactly into mine like a fine velvet glove. The way he put God in the center of his life is what I found truly remarkable in him. It’s one thing that I value the most when I look at a person. He simply made me happy. I never felt so appreciated and trusted, because of this I never wanted to break his faith in me. However, I could never continue to lie and keep convincing myself that what I truly felt does not exist. How can I be honest to others if I am not to myself?

It has been said, that if you truly love someone, you have to let him go. That’s exactly what I’m doing right now. Letting go and fighting for something I consider that is worth fighting for. I will be honest before it’s too late. I will be true to myself, I will be true especially to you.”

From then on, I never heard a word from him.

Merry Christmas Guys!

Pakshet naman yan, Migs!
Grrr…

well…. i am lonely again… but i guess it is better that way…. kesa sayangin ko ang oras ko sa mga lalakeng walang kwenta….. you may have a very good point…. i did the same to a friend a few years back….

pasok sa banga, o!

“Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
Theres nobody there, no one cares for me
Whats the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share it with
Tell me what does it mean? ”

migs, if u feel good about what you’ve told chinoy, i think thats what you really want.
although i understand what the other reader’s are saying about telling chinoy that you like him too, i also understand the fear.

hay buhay…

you may never read this, tony, but i will take your comment as a compliment! hahaha. analysis-paralysis

gud for u migs to hav him…..waaahhhhh world peace