To be or not to be gay — that is Josh’s question. What do you guys think? Should this “gay virgin” give in? Or should he continue along with his straight life? Would you recommend he take at least a bite of the “forbidden fruit”?
I love reading the articles and posts on your site. I can’t remember how I learned about it, but it’s nice seeing a site that presents a fine division of pure fun, a little bit of naughtiness and insightful messages for men who also love men.
Yes, I am writing because I can see myself among some of those who share their dilemmas and problems regarding their sexuality. Through your site, I find myself having an imaginary friend, someone who can actually understand what I am going through or the confusions that’s going on in my mind. Someone that can relate with me.
Yes, I am a closet gay. I am sexually attracted to the same sex but am consciously not doing anything about it. I do get attracted to the opposite sex but I know that it’s not as strong as to how I feel about men. I made peace about it a few years ago, after several years of emotional struggle, trying to make myself believe that I can be straight and have a normal life with a woman and raise a family of my own. I do still think about it from time to time, but am now fully aware of what I truly am.
Accepting that I am gay does not mean that I do sleep around with other men. No, I haven’t slept nor had any sexual relationship with any man. I don’t mean to pull my own chair, but yes, I am decent looking, and had a fair share of intentional implied harassments from men and women. I am pretty much straight in manners, the way I speak, grooming and clothing. I don’t go to any place that gay men go (gaybars, events) , and am pretty clean in my way of living. I live a too clean and boring life, as a matter of fact.
What I want to ask is how do I go about this? I can’t bear to let my family know that I am not straight. I am scared on what others in my workplace would feel if anyone of them finds out. Not even my closest friends know about this. It’s a feeling that I am keeping inside myself.
I want to experience having a relationship with other men. Even casual ones. What it’s like sleeping with the same sex. It’s like a forbidden fruit that you know will hurt you but you still want it anyway. I have been clean living all my life, but I know I am not getting any younger, and I don’t want to look back and be regretful that I have never done something that I should have done in the past. I know I am currently doing the safest thing, by being quiet and clean, but is it the smartest thing to do? Would you advise for me to take the plunge, and personally taste how it’s like?
Thanks a lot, and I hope that one day, I can share my thoughts and views to a real friend, just as like as how I am relaying this to you.
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