Singlehood is so fun. And yet it is so educational, too.
Recently I met this guy, let’s call him Mar. He’s 24, a cute chap, smiling face, and, yes he’s a straight-acting gay guy. And he’s one of those who have not really made up their minds regarding their sexual preference. “For me, wala lang ito. Di ko iniisip, basta fun lang. I have too many other issues in my life, bakit ko pro-problemahin kung bading ako o hindi? Magkakapera ba ako kapag na-figure out ko yun?” Mar said.
As our conversation progressed, I felt my brain was about to bleed with so many warring twists and turns in his logic. Obviously, the guy is in denial. He wants to have a family, he wants to please his mom, he wants to be the same way as how his friends imagine him to be, he wants everything — except to be honest.
But I did not say a word to go against any of his statements. I sensed that I cannot offer any argument that can make him see the lapses in logic. I thought that maybe Mar needed some more time, and some more experiences to perhaps learn a thing or two about facing reality head on. For now, all he wanted was to have fun.
And so did I.
Epilogue: So after a few more of my nods, “uhums” and “yes” while he was delivering his piece, he started to naughtily go south. And for a while, the world (in my mind) was a veritable land of peace and pleasure. Hahaha!
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