On Mr. Basketball Player
Some of you may be wondering what ever happened to my “basketball player”… I’ve kept silent since I posted about him here. Now that I’ve had enough time to analyze what has happened between me and my basketball player, I feel more confident to share this…
An open letter to my basketball player:
Dear Basketball Player: I remember that poignant moment when you told me, in the sanctity of my bedroom, still, cold and dark then, how people thought you were such a strong, strong guy, while deep inside you know you are weak. You told me how you were amazed by my steel-strong character underneath the caring person you so adored. Tears were flowing down your cheeks, and there and then I saw the confused boy underneath the macho persona I thought I adored. I remember these thoughts, with bitter sweet remembrance — sweet because of your absolute sincerity, and bitter because somehow I cannot feel anything but pity. How can I help you if you wallow on your misery, and you take comfort in being miserable? I don’t think that you even know what you’re looking for. So for my own sanity, I’ve got to close the door. I wish you the best though, even if for now it meant solitude. Just so that you can start getting to know your real self, my friend.
And a song from Avenue Q, so fitting for my basketball player:
There’s A Fine, Fine Line
(by Katie Monster, Avenue Q)
There’s a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There’s a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know ’til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.
There’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.
There’s a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there’s a fine, fine line between “You’re wonderful” and “Goodbye.”
I guess if someone doesn’t love you back it isn’t such a crime,
But there’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.
And I don’t have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don’t think that you even know what you’re looking for.
For my own sanity, I’ve got to close the door
And walk away…
Oh…
There’s a fine, fine line between together and not
And there’s a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you’re still in your prime…
There’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.
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September 8th, 2007 at 6:59 pm
gosh
sad
he didn’t even made it to finals
maybe next time
September 8th, 2007 at 7:08 pm
sya ba yung pinost mo dati? as in sya tlga? or hindi?
September 8th, 2007 at 7:44 pm
i love the song..very sad..but inspirational…where can i download the song??..pls tnx.
September 8th, 2007 at 7:50 pm
that’s sad.. pero parang pareho ng personality si Mr. Basketball player at ang ex ko.. (x_x)
anyway.. i love Avenue Q.. i hope i get a chance to watch it!!
September 8th, 2007 at 8:51 pm
Haaay, migs… I admire your level headedness, your self control, your logical thinking… pero question… not even once have you just let yourself swim in someone’s arms, thinking not of the situation? Shouldn’t you be more needed to be with him now, amidst his confusion?
Pero well, malay ko ba. I’ve yet to experience a gay relationship preo…If time comes that he finally had come to terms with his “real” self, and comes back to you… would you welcome him back? (as in with open arms with kasamang kiss?)
September 8th, 2007 at 8:58 pm
hehe. sorry, ang gulo pala ng sentence construction ko.
September 8th, 2007 at 10:49 pm
we wish you well mr. basketball player.
September 9th, 2007 at 12:07 am
i love Avenue Q! tawa ako ng tawa when i saw in on broadway. i love the opening song (it sucks to be me) lalo na yung kumanta si christmas eve ng maraming suck. hahaha!!! plus ang gwapo nung guy na nagplay ng princeton. cutie!
and i heard may production sa manila ngayon. that’s nice. but some lines are so american pop culture. kaya when i saw it on broadway di ko magets ang ibang joke. hahaha!!! plus the role of gary coleman would not be a funny if you dont know him and his story in hollywood.
i wish you the best migs with your basketball player…
September 9th, 2007 at 4:10 am
migz,
be honest.pwede mo bang pangalanan ang basketball player?kahit initials lang =)
September 9th, 2007 at 11:59 am
kuya migz, si basketball player ba ay nasa UAAP?
September 9th, 2007 at 1:26 pm
Goodness, it feels really weird knowing that my favorite blogger went through a similar experience i did. Sometimes all we can say is just “oh well”, and then we sigh.
September 9th, 2007 at 3:30 pm
guys, i hope you understand if i request that we all respect mr. basketball player’s right to anonymity. salamat, world peace!
September 9th, 2007 at 5:17 pm
nice music podcast, and not a waste of time
September 10th, 2007 at 6:38 am
Oh well . . . Whoever he is, hope he may find his own happiness in life.
Let us not press Migs to identify Mr. Bastetball Player
September 10th, 2007 at 12:58 pm
Sometimes its better to let go than to hang on to something where certainty is out of reach… I’ve dotted sentences, ended chapters and closed books to anyone I have opened my self into but gained nothing from them… Sure, I’ve asked my self the never ending what-if questions. But then if you are going to positively hope for something, then positively hope where you know you will hurt less.
September 10th, 2007 at 1:04 pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tlh7sHTWDAU
It’s an AMV where this song is the background. nice song… very nice song… somehow i can relate… A LOT! lol…
September 10th, 2007 at 2:22 pm
Heh nice find Isaribi. I’m derailing a bit but here is my favorite song in Avenue Q cause it always makes me laugh. The video is a WoW (world of warcraft) video…and yes I am addicted to WoW.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=19s4PCaQ5Mk
September 10th, 2007 at 4:07 pm
haha! that cracked me up… must download and convert to mp3… hehe
September 10th, 2007 at 4:51 pm
hey manila gay guy..i feel for you..same thing happened to me and we really should know the fine line between reality and pretend..i admire your ideas and personality..God loves you..
September 10th, 2007 at 4:54 pm
hmmm. now I understand a bit why. I was listening to Rx Morning Rush Top Ten, and the topic was “Things you’ve learned from a failed Relationship.” One interesting view given was ‘not to get involved with a very sad guy, ’cause both of you might just end up miserable and you cannot really save him from his “dark side”, he has to face his own wars/ demons. Better to get involved with a “happy” man so that both of you can try being “happier” unlike the first which could on get “sadder”… or somehting to that effect.
well, that’s life…
September 10th, 2007 at 8:21 pm
wow, sad but true…but i am holding on…i am sexually attracted to my best friend, but i am hanging on even if he does not reciprocate, although he has professed his love to me as his best friend. i am hanging on not because i see a future with him beyond a simple friendship. i am hanging on because i see a future with him with just pure friendship and brotherhood. it is not a waste of time with him. my sexual desires i can keep to myself; i want to spend my time with him because he is my best friend.
September 12th, 2007 at 12:08 am
i was going to ask kung pwede akin na lang siya joke.
seriously, i learned that sometimes if we push things to happen it just wouldn’t lalo na pagdating sa pagibig. siguro it’s best to value whatever it was and siguro accept na lang natin na minsan hanggang dun lang talaga.
love the song.